You’ve both been gone for eight
years and I am turning seventy. I still
miss what we never had. Even when you
were here, I had become my own mother,
my own father. It took some time but I
can remember a beautiful moment in
the eye of the storm that was our life.
It was on a summer night in our small
backyard around a fire as the peepers
grew loud and we all stopped arguing
for a long moment. While you were
staring into the fire, I stared into you.
In that oyster glow, I could part your
anger and see past your wounds, all
the way to the soft center you found
in each other before I was born. Now
I thread these images like beads of truth
on a necklace I call you that strings from
before I was here to who knows where.
A Question to Walk With: Tell the story of an absence that pulls on you. It might be the loss of a loved one or the loss of a dream or the loss of an identity or home. What is it that you miss and where might you find such energy now in your life?
This is from my book, The Half-Life of Angels.
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